Quatro...

I love you
till my head spinning
just hearing of your name

I love you so much
till my head wants to burst
just because your kiss

I love you too much
till I dreamt of you
sleeping next to me

But

You said, it was too much
you said, it is no time to do that
you said, we had to know the time

When to get serious
When to get romantic
and then to get funny

but tell me now
if it not now
how is it I know

That my heart will ever feels this way again?
That this moment will lasts forever?
That this love is true?

The more you know me
The further apart you became
how can I not be afraid?

Tell me
Does this some kind of sick joke
that you deceive me?
Truly it is, yes...

Depressed me

Why
Am I so stupid?
Am I that bad?
Am I that useless?

Why
Does I always do the wrong act?
Does I always pick the wrong choice?
Does I never, ever, be wise?

Why
Did I keep makes people angry of me?
Did I keep makes people I love got fed up on me?
Did I always do the useless things?

Why
Can't I be like any other person?
Can't I work like a professional?
Can't I be more mature?

Why
Can't I stop feeling depressed?
Can't I stop making mistakes?
Can't I found what I'm good at?

Why
All I do is just wrong?
All I said is just wrong?
All I think is just wrong?

Why
Did I always failed?
Did I never get any luck?
Did I always disappoint those who near me?

Why...

I can't think about something positive
I can't stop thinking about hurting myself
I can't remember the last time I didn't fail..

God makes everyone unique and have their own way
but sometimes I do think..
'Did I born as a failure, so that there's people who will look at me and feels better, saying to themselves, "At least I'm not like her"'??

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