Simple blogging at dusk

Oh well.. I'm not in the mood of blogging these days.. So I'm really sorry about the late updates.. I've been feeling like a screwed up.. *sorry to ruin your mood, readers* and there's nothing I can do about it.. so I've been thinking, rather than I'm bitching off here, it's better to keep it inside. I was once, let it out.. a little, a little.. and then it burst out, I became such drama queen, or should I say, drag-ma queer.. I mean, I was total mess that time, and it's like exhibitionist! I'm showing my "labil" side , shout about it so loud that people start to look at me with such pity looks. Anyway, I don't like it so I try to stop. And I don't like to start again. I'd rather keep it in.. *even sometimes I wonder.. how will I cope then? nevermind.. I'll cope anyway..*

I'm not feeling so well, mentally. So I apologize if a few of my blog-post aren't that Paw-Styled or nicely decorated like usual *I know you do love yoyo-cici and those other cute fellas as much as I do, oh how we're gonna miss 'em so badly* and I'm really, really sorry if I do sound like a heavin 'ho and bitching off my own blog, fill it with repressed, stressed stats and horrible quotations, but hey, it's me!

Well.. These days I've been trying to keep my heart closed.. but it was just too difficult. I once play The Sims3, and they have some trait named "hopelessly romantic" where the sim who had that are tend to fall in love more easily than other sim, and he/she can't help but falling in love to a person almost everytime. Well that's also what happens to me. I tried, I really tried. But alas, I've gotten bad.. And unlike in my sim, who can always get anyone whom she loves, I can't. in fact, I can't even control who I fall in with, unlike in my game, where I make her go to the guy she deserves the most. But for me, I'm not. *Tch*

Anyway, I should stop. Everything. I mean it. Final assignment are getting closer, the days are counting, but here I am, trashin' around with The Sims Medieval and 500GB of movies and TV-series... I should get back to Macromedia Flash CS4, but I just can't feel the urge to work.. Somebody have some mood-stabilizer drugs? Like those guys in Hollywood use? I might need some..

Comments, anyone? I feel so... bad.. :(

Was, will, whenever

Was, will, whenever

Is it past?

The smell of love

The sweet, sweet taste

fills and surrounds every corner

heals every wound that is

close your eyes and 

can you see?

What, what time is it?

Children are playing outside

Come now, adulthood

it's time to take those children home

Can't they see?

It's not their time again

Past the bed time, they say

It's part of us where 

the adults are consider us as one of them

Whether we're ready or not

leaving any wound, unhealed

Here, here

It's night already

won't you take a nap?

Aren't you tired?

Love is a big thing

They say, child's love is a puppy love

Does that makes us child as puppy?

no, no, they say

and there, they change the topic

Love, still unhealed

revealed after long, long time

The rest is now rotten

but the love is still there

bleed fresh blood

even as we say it

Tears are flowing

and the heart asks

"When will this stop?"

Only time will smile

and says

"Soon, my dearie.. now sleep,

as I heal you"

And so does

The childhood gone

The puppy love too

but time

heals the heart

to prepare her 

as an adult.